“Know what you want to do, hold the thought firmly,
and do every day what should be done,
and every sunset will see you that much nearer the goal.”
Elbert Hubbard (1856-1915)
Two days in and I already feel the pressure I have placed myself under. NaNoWriMo is not for the faint of heart; however writing every chance I get, I can see that the goal of 1700 words per day, is attainable. A bit of organization in my normal routine and it should be quite manageable. Lunch break at work is giving me the golden opportunity to get 1/2 hour of uninterrupted writing and once I start I feel an ease I had not suspected. I guess my heart was so full of the story I wanted to write, it is now letting loose on the blank page. All I have to do now is to keep my pen going straight on the paper.
However the challenge lies more in the fact I always tend to look ahead and when I do, this overwhelming feeling of anxiety strikes me down in the gut. “What did I get myself into this time?” I could berate myself questioning my
poor judgement, however I also have another choice.
Today I accept the fact that I thrive under pressure even if I do not like it. I am a walking contradiction, wanting peace and quiet, a full-time job, mothering two teenagers while pursuing my artistic inclinations. Did I mention I want to do all this at the same time? Given this impossible goal I choose instead to go with the flow, try and do my best one day at a time, one page at a time.
The beauty in growing up lies in the acceptance of who we are. So I am trying to embrace my crazy self and be at peace with my contradictions knowing that deep inside I wouldn’t or couldn’t have it any other way.
Tell me friend am I the only one to feel like this???