Struggling to find my written voice I kept on writing for NaNoWrimo in doing so, something very interesting happened to me. I met someone I had totally forgotten about for many years. A chance encounter, I had not really planned. While letting go of the control of my story, I discovered someone else knew the way. The little girl I was long time ago had come to visit me, to show me the way.
At first I did not even recognize her, she looked so sure of herself. She knew what she was doing, and kept on smiling, nudging me to follow her whispering, …you can do it…Not really understanding, I followed her lead and this is where I am now. Listening to this little girl’s voice in my head telling me to remember things I wanted to forget. I can now tell you that sitting down while writing I am having entire moments out of time, as if I am in a total different location. Time is still while stretching endlessly, it is a very confusing experience, yet I have to say I do like it.
The beauty of it all has to do with the fact that having seen her again is giving me a renewed sense of possibilities. It’s like I am offered access to those childhood dreams I had forgotten and I feel like it’s time to play and to explore. Fear is still there but it’s being tamed and I get to re-discover moments in time I thought I had erased from my memory. I will not be a winner for NaNoWriMo this year but the main gift I got this time around was to be re-acquainted with myself, my much younger self.
I wonder dear friend, are you still in contact with your inner-child?
- NaNoWriMo: It’s All Right To Take Your Time (evilnymphstuff.wordpress.com)