I am not a product of my circumstances.
I am a product of my decisions.
I promise you I did not mean to, I just forgot how to dance with you. It’s not that I don’t like when we dance together anymore, it is simply that the way we used to follow each other’s steps is escaping me at this moment. I feel lost and confused, time tricked me into thinking I would always know our dance. How could I ever forget? After all these years together, it should have been imprinted in my memory, tattooed in my heart, unfortunately l have to admit… I just forgot.
Or at least, this is what I want to tell myself. In reality I chose not to remember, deciding instead to spend more time learning how to follow my artist’s voice. As a result I forgot to practice those steps we used when we danced together. Today, on our 18th anniversary my heart wants to hear our music and remember the pleasures we used to feel in each other’s arms. My mind does not know how to reach for you anymore and I know you feel the same, I can see it in your eyes, I can read it in your heart.
So what do we do, tell me, what do we do?
Being the eternal optimist, I hope we will find our way back to dancing the way we used to and in the meantime I wish us both patience and understanding with each other’s clumsiness around the dance floor …