The unsettling truth is that:”Life goes on ” if my head understands it, my heart is still unwilling to obey those words.
Physical pain rippling from within, coming into waves, at the most inopportune times then slowly settling in the middle of my stomach. The sudden flow of tears coming out of nowhere is somehow harder to control. The dull ache of emptiness filling some of my daily moments.
Those are some of the signs that indeed life goes on, regardless of how I selfishly wanted my whole world to stop,
for ever, for a day, or even for an instant. One of the most surprising element of this grief I am experiencing right now, is that the distance did not lessen my pain. I must say it comes as a definite shock, as I had anticipated exactly the contrary, being so far from everyone for so long.
The streaming sunlight is soothing my heart and its soft touch warms my soul. Deep inside I understand time is going to make it all better, so I am learning patience while trying to make sense of how I am feeling.
Thank you dear friends for your visits and your kind words of encouragement, they help me stay above water xo